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You know what new year reminds me off?

Rogue-fucking-Rouge

He, broke my fucking heart. I hope I meat him so I can tell him, so he can die guilty of breeeeaking a heart.

Not much of a threat huh?

It's his fucking death aniversarry.

Aidan killed him, january, one in the morning. Should he be called a murderer?

His confession, his fucking last journal post, he errased it aproximately two weeks after he posted it, apparently trying to earase his existance. He forgot his comments.

He has a thousand of 'em posted everywhere.

This is obviously going nowhere, so I'll get to the point.

This one's derected to Aidan.

You remember that fiction I wrote for you? that last part? Yeah, my character was walking home, and she heard a piano playing, then she tripped 'cuz she's cool like that, then some doors burst open, showing curious peoples, then just when she was getting over the initial shock of her fall, some guy approches her and asks if she's okay.

She says yeah, she's okay and he helps her up, and she asks him if he was the one playing. he says yeah.

Thing is, he seemed vaugly familiar, though she knows she's never seen him before.

She then comes to the conclution that he's the guy she's always been thinking of these past few year.

Yeah, he was that dude from the net who sang and played the piano and shared his music with people who wanted to hear it.

So... The thing is, I hope to be that girl (who just happened to hear someone playing the piano.), and I hope to fall on my ass one night, and have people look at me--cuz their nosy, and then Aidan comes out and helps me out, and you know.

I'm off to get you.

--I honestly LOVE you, Aidan. I get high on your music.

I have writter's block.

Stupid writting skills.

I think I need to start reading again, but unfortunalely, the books at our library suck.

And the public library is... wait? do we have one of those?

God damned philippines. Stupid country.

well, anyway... yeah... that's it.

Honestly, he's so stupid, I swear.

It's like the more he doesn't talk to me, the happier I get.

I just HATE him.

He's the biggest stain in my already-ruined-since-the-freaking-begin wash cloth of a life.

yeah, I know that's a pretty stupid metaphore.

but what can I do? he sucks the creativity ourt of me.

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rawr.

He cheats.

He cheated on my real mom. He had a kid with another woman, and now, he remarried, and had an affair with yet another gold digger. not that she could dig any gold from him directly, we kinda relly on my step-mom for finance.

He's so freaking STUPID

HE should just drop dead and DIE.

I loath him.

What is one of the nicest things you've ever done for another person?

Uh, I've given someone food! :D That's it I guess. (And that food wasn't eated/dirty/whutever)

>__< I was looking for a doll maker in deviant art, and finally! I found a good one. It was a link, I followed it, and >__< an awsome doll maker thing!
( and the results... )

Naked


Yeah I'm fading
And I call out
No one hears me
Never been, never felt, never thought I'd say a word
Weighed down
Safe now
You're naked inside your fear
You can't take back all those years
The shots in the dark from empty guns
Are never heard by anyone
Never heard by anyone
Yeah I'm hiding
in the fallout
Now I'm wasted
They don't need me, don't want me, don't hear a word I say
Weighed down
Safe now
You're naked inside your fear
You can't take back all those years
The shots in the dark from empty guns
Are never heard by anyone
Never heard by anyone
Inside your head
No one's there
And I don't think I'll ever be
And I don't care
You're naked inside your fear
You can't take back all those years
The shots in the dark from empty guns
Are never heard by anyone
Never heard by anyone
By anyone
By anyone

:: insert evillaugh here ::

I finished seven icons!! ::another evil laugh::

Now, here it is!!



(  A frozen heart... )

>.<

like I said, Happy new year!!

*is out to get earplugs*

uhh... Roguerouge is awsome?

In every movie, there’s always that part where they show the names of the actors. I kinda got excited ‘coz I saw ‘Josh Peck’, I so totally thought that he was going to be the main character. I expected him to be the kind one, but unfortunately he wasn’t. He was the retarded fat kid who bullies other kids, and attacks people for no reason. It was weird seeing him like that since I usually watch him playing the good guy, the underdog, the guy who knows the difference of what’s right and what’s wrong, like in Drake and Josh, and in All That.

Another thing that surprised me was the girl. I think I saw her in Lizzie McGuire (or maybe she just looks like the girl I saw in Lizzie McGuire), but I didn’t really immediately notice that. My first impression of her was “An albino?”, but I shrugged it off when I saw her skin tone in better lighting. It was too tan.

I think I recognized that guy who provoked josh in the movie, but since I couldn’t really remember where I saw him, I just said ‘He just looks like some one I saw’ to myself.

I kinda recognized the thin kid, who (I think) knew josh. I saw him in this movie, and in my opinion, he looks like Jason Cruz, from our class. Thin, and … well, thin.

Anyway, back to the movie. So the first few parts express the bond between Sammy and Rocky (I think that was his name). Like, when Sammy told Rocky what happened to him, and when Sammy offered Rocky part of the bubble gum he was chewing. They had to be really close not to argue and to share bubble gum like that. (At least they don’t share the same girlfriend) It’s really unusually for me to see two siblings not arguing. They really are part of each other’s lives.

It’s kinda weird that Rocky has bad friends and is good to his younger brother at the same time. Don’t people with friends who are bad influences usually withdraw themselves from their family? I admire Rocky for the fact that he didn’t shun away his brother, but that admiration went down the toilet and into the Posso Negro when I saw his friends. Those two guys suck. (Though the thin one doesn’t suck as much as the taller one)

Rocky and that thin guy still had their consciences, but that tall one? Shit, man. Offering weed to minors? (Note: weed = Marijuana). HAVING weed with him is crime enough, but offering some to other people? This really makes me want to look down on Americans and their country (But a guy who I admire lives there).

Speaking of low, that blond girl, how old is she?! A peck on the check would’ve been fine, but 10+ seconds of FRENCH kissing?! She totally comes off as a slut. (To me that is…) And her skirt was too short as well. And girl’s shouldn’t have boyfriends till they’re 30!! (Yes, a bit exaggerated, but I’m sure that fathers would agree with me.)

As far as I could tell, they were planning to strip George, throw him into the creek and make him run home naked, cruel, ne? (“Ne” and “Yeah” are now my new replacement for “Noh” ^_^ ;;) That would be considered worship, compared to what happened to him.

So it starts off as a prank. A mean prank, but still it’s a prank. I wouldn’t have hurt anything other than one’s pride, unless one doesn’t know how to swim.

Rocky and his friends planned the prank, without thinking of what the consequences are. Did they even consider the swimming capability of George? Apparently no.

Try thinking, yeah? (I know thinking hurts, but still.)

They drove to George’s house, to come and get him. And instead of seeing him all arrogant and mean and stuff, they saw that he was actually a nice guy. That was one of the factors that made Sammy not want to go through with the prank. There were probably other factors as to not continue the prank, but I’m too lazy to enumerate all of them (and my memory ain’t working with me so I don’t remember much of the movie)

There were things about George that makes you NOT want to hurt him, and there are other things about him that makes you want to slit his throat and cut off his balls. The fact that he’s retarded means he doesn’t mean most of the bad stuff he’s doing. There’s the other fact that he smoked to be “in” with the weed-offering dude. And the other fact that he claimed that he had smoked weed. But even though he was retarded and superficial, he still gave Sammy a water gun thingy (apparently an EXPENSIVE water gun thingy) for his fake birthday. This confuses me. If he’s human enough to give someone a decent birthday gift, why isn’t he human enough to refuse to smoke, and know what’s right and what’s wrong, ne?

Ahh, truth or dare, a game where a lot of people earn their first kisses, and twigs up their asses (Don’t ask). Sammy got his first 10 second French kiss (which is pretty disgusting considering the fact that he and his “girlfriend” were very young, the fact that most boys still think that girls have cooties at that age, and the fact that most girls that age have strong feminism) The tall guy got his first not-so-public viewing of his penis. And George got his first death and underwater crack in the skull. Ouchie, yeah?

So apparently, those guys have low reaction rates, and none of them have cell phones. Why does it have to take them so long before they jump into the water to save a dude, ne? So because of provocation from both parties (George and the weed dude), and a slow reaction time, George died.

Lesson learned? Pranks are bad, yeah? And they can lead to Deaths too, ne?

That isn’t the end; the weed dude has more atrociousness to show us.

Weed dude doesn’t have respect for the dead. (Just because the dead guy is almost not worth respecting doesn’t mean that you really SHOULDN’T respect him) What kind of dead-respecting person would dig up a hole to dump a corpse in without a coffin, yeah? I think he should have admitted to his crime for respect too. They already killed him, (a SIN!!) and they disrespect him too?!

--- > I am coming out as such a hypocrite, yeah?

The good thing is that they actually admitted to the crime, and weed dude got what he deserved.

Another lesson learned.
Girls can make guys do anything, and if you’re like weed-dude, life isn’t going to be easy for you. So be a normal, dead respecting, weed hating, and good influenced person, yeah?

Some more reactions:

That end part in the movie made me wanna understand George. He said that people don’t know what sin his mind, that’s why they don’t understand him. He probably wants friends who’ll listen, learn to love him, learn to forgive him, and make him a better person.

AWW…

I’LL BE YOUR FRIEND!!

^^;;

Hope you enjoyed reading my reaction paper.
^^;;

ehehe...

I've been really bored, lately which caused me to go through a flashback while I was drinking juice this morning...

"I wonder what Inui juice would really taste like"

I thought to myself.

But really, what WOULD Inui juice taste like? *Is planning on making Inui Juice*

That would be an effective punishment... No wonder Seigaku Rocks!!

Well, anyway. Other than the Inui juice thing, I remembered something else... a fanfic I was planning to write. It was supposed to be an OC fiction, and a person was to be paired with Inui. It's title was going to be "Penal-tea Lover" or some thing... but I don't think I'll be writing it anytime soon. I lack inspiration. Well, anyway.

Ja Matte.

"'Tis the season to be jolly..."

Yeah, right. Christmas isn't necessarily a "Happy" occasion. Not everyone is
signing carols, some are to busy grieving over dead loved ones to notice the
"happy" in the air. Some are alone at Christmas, they're in their hell hole of
an apartment crying their eyes out because of the loneliness... Some even spend
their Christmas in hospitals, attending to other's happiness. Cruel, cruel,
faith.

-Toko-